Missed Opportunities.

Yesterday was not a good day for me. It was Monday, I did not get enough sleep, and I was not feeling well. All of that combined with the fact that I just really did not want to go to work, instantly put me in a mood yesterday. So, I went throughout my day not really wanting to entertain anyone, in my own little zone, doing my own thing. I didn’t really have an attitude, I just was not particularly receptive to anyone or any non-work related conversations. So again, I go through my day, get off, go home, preparing to lay down for bed when this thought came barreling into the forefront of my thinking,

“How many opportunities did you miss out on today because of your “mood”?”

That one thought halted EVERYTHING. I went back and traced my day out mentally and although I could not find a particular moment where an opportunity presented itself, I do see moments where I could have definitely worked on my writing. All throughout the day I had ideas of topics, how to word things, and content that would pop into my head, and instead of taking the time to develop those thoughts, I told myself, “I’m not in the mood.” How incredibly foolish and immature of me. Here I am saying just how much I desire to walk in purpose but allowing how I feel to dictate to me what  I do. I had at least 8 hours yesterday to develop myself and I forfeited that time to a “mood.”

How many times have you did the same? Failed to take another step forward that day because, well, you just didn’t feel like it? What opportunity was missed because of it? What blessing was sitting there waiting for you at the very next step? We like to say that “What God has for me is for me,” but if we are not prepared for it, it won’t be. We’re praying for it but we are not prepared to receive it. We are praying for doors of opportunities to be opened but are not ready to walk through them if it is not at the right moment depending upon how we are feeling that day. Had an opportunity presented itself to me yesterday, I would have missed it. There’s no doubt in my mind. But, now that I am aware of that, I am taking steps rewire my thinking in order to ensure that I am able to recognize when a “mood” is about to cause me to forfeit destiny.

Don’t let opportunity pass you by today. Don’t allow a mood to dictate what you are going to do. Be proactive and make the decision to take a step forward despite how you feel.

Peace & Blessings.

How Long, Lord?

I was doing some studying and meditating this morning and was writing some things out but decided that I could flow better if I just typed it out. Here are my thoughts:

In the book of Habakkuk and The prophet literally asks ALL of the questions that I have asked within my heart over the past year.  “How long, Lord?” “Why do you force me to look at injustice?” “Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?” On a daily basis I see things that look like and are in direct opposition to the character of God. All of the violence, injustice, and oppression that is taking place causes me to question why God being the loving and sovereign God that He is, would allow these things to happen? It has challenged my faith and caused me to doubt Him because I ask myself, ” How can I serve a God who would allow such heinous and gross injustice to seemingly prevail against His people?”

My heart has broken more times than I can count. When I thought that it was impossible for it to break anymore, it proved me wrong. I have cried and I have groaned. I have felt anger and rage so deep that it started to encase my heart in a impenetrable shroud of hatred because I wanted to know WHY and HOW. People are asking why and how and are not getting answers to these questions and it is causing an insurmountable amount of frustration and anger. But I think what keeps that shroud from completely enclosing me in is this phrase that resounds ever so sweetly within my heart. “For just a time as this…” Every time doubt and anger rises, that phrase rises up to combat it. It has been rolling over in my heart for a while now and I am getting a greater understanding of it each and every day. For just a time as this, that vision and purpose has been placed in your heart.

We can say what we want about 45, and many of us have a lot to say, but one thing I see resulting because of this administration is a resurgence of purpose. Because of the anger and uncertainty we are feeling, it is causing some of those old dreams to be stirred up again. Things that we were once so passionate about, but because of life, laziness, and complacency, we have allowed them to dwindle and become ashes in the corner of our hearts and the things that are happening today has caused a gust of wind to sweep through and ignite the fire again. Fear and anger is the catalyst that is causing purpose to burn again. For some of us, we would continue to go on with our daily lives day in and day out never even brushing up against destiny if we did not have something to provoke us to make a change.

Because of the threat that many will not have the ability to feed themselves and their family, there are people starting programs to combat that. Because of the senseless and unjustifiable murders that have taken place, there are people starting to step into roles of county and state officials in order to combat that. Because of the threat of there being no way for our children to get the education that they need, there are people coming together to build schools to combat that! For millennials, because our ability to make it and the possibility that a debt free life will never be in reach for us, many of us are coming up with new and inventive ways to make it happen. Purpose is being awakened. People are being awakened.

Do  you not know  the answers that are held up in you? Do you not know the GLORY that is housed within you? When God created man, He breathed his very essence within us! So God, being God and all that He is, put all of that in you and I and we have the nerve not to manifest it. Whether you are a believer or not, there was something placed on the inside of you the moment you were conceived. That something is the solution for every situation that is arising today and it is selfish of us not to manifest it.

People are crying out and asking, “why, why, why?” And it is because purpose is calling and we won’t answer. Ask yourself, how many people are going without because I won’t start doing what is in my heart to do? How many laws could I have helped change? How many people could I have helped feed? How many children could I have educated? The moment you answer purpose is the moment that the answer starts to manifest.

I have been asking, “How long, Lord?” and He answered, “For however long you allow it…”


Be blessed.

Bedtime Thoughts. 

I’m currently preparing to call it a night and as usual I’m having full dialogues and conversations in my head. Playing out scenes and scenarios that would never happen but it helps to excerise my imagination so I’ll let it play until I fall asleep.

As I’m laying out clothes for tomorrow’s workday I have this thought that interrupts all my other thoughts…

“It’s not me doubting God, it’s me doubting myself in Him. I have this deep inner knowing that He is the one true living God, so that’s not in question. The wavering in faith and all of the doubts that I often times have is in the fact that He, being all that He is, wants me. Fully and completely. Messed up, flawed, and all. Me. I KNOW that He can do all things but can He do them through me?”

I don’t know. I tell myself, “even me, Lord, even me. I know that you can use even me.” but do I really believe it? Not really. Maybe in a moment of excitement and zeal. But, once that moment fades…

Maybe one day I’ll really see that even me.

Yet and Still, Life is Good.